Monbukagakusho

Yesterday i was smsing agnes den recieved a very unexpected msg "U got the japan thingy d..." Then i was like "how u knoe? u recieved the reply d?" den i went down n asked my parents if there were any mail for me... Then my dad said "u expecting any mail meh?" so i didnt bother to reply him den i went outside to check the mailbox... there were abt 5 mails there..

First mail from the top... it was for my dad...
Second mail... a perodua reciept for my brother's car... battery went dead den the car was immobilised...
Third mail... another mail for my dad... something to do wif the stocks n stuff..
Fourth mail... I caught a glimpse of the word Japan on the top left corner so i quickly took it out but i didnt see any name on it so it might not have been mine.. den i checked the last mail... it was for my aunt...

So immediately my mind was wondering.. maybe i didnt get the thing.. my results werent that good anyway.. im not a straight A scorer or anything.. but then i thought... how come the fourth mail didnt have any name on it so i took a closer look.. the name was blocked by the top of the window on the envelope.. so i opened it up n it showed my name there... den my mind started to race wif my heart... by that time i was already back in the house n my dad was standing right beside me n my mom was carrying my nephew trying to feed him milk...

N so i read the first few lines of the letter....
" Regarding your application for the above scholarship, which was submitted to the Embassy of Japan, I am pleased to inform you that you are eligible to take a written examination..."

I was hoping dat both my heart n mind would js stop for a moment bcos as soon as i read that i started to think abt how r we getting there(the exam is in KL) n wat if i fail or wat if i dun fail... am i really gonna go to japan?... do i really wan to go? All these questions filled up my body in just a split second...

The exam is going to be on the 24th of May in the morning that is on a sunday morning.. that means we need to stay there for the night on saturday n take the test on sunday n then return to penang on the same day for school on monday...

Furthermore the date of the exam is directly after my mid year examination in school... its on the sunday of the last week of examination.. dat means we(agnes, khang yang n ee boon) have limited time to prepare.. well i assumed that they all got it because they had much better spm results den i did...

So till now i dunno wat to do for the exams... i js downloaded the past year papers for the exam(like as if im gonna go thru any of them).. khang yang said we r going down by bus for sure but we still dunno where to stay for saturday night...

Thats all for now.. my mind is still clogged up... need to unclog it first before i can make any rational decision...